e-zul's Life

january.

2012-01-19T13:08:00.000+08:00

is not the month I hoped it would be.

unproductive, no fun, too much drama.

still waiting for the offer though,

I miss the excitement of making stories,

meeting people,

seeing new things.

I hope I can land the job.

circles.

2012-01-10T14:08:00.001+08:00

No matter what happens,

They will eventually fall for stupid unreasonable things.

good educations and experiences don't matter.

'Interesting' they say.

they can only see that these articles can bring them...

happiness,

with complete false promises.

manipulated.

then they raged with words of blame and hate.

only to fall again right after that.

and I can only say,

It would be a never ending boring repetitions.

if you choose to stay with it.

stability.

2012-01-08T12:18:00.000+08:00

I hope I can achieve that this year.

politics.

2012-01-06T20:19:00.001+08:00

The truth hurts, they say.
but at least, it teaches me to be careful next time.

If only I can turn back the time,
I will change my decision,
and made it all for myself than think about others,

revenge is sweet they say,
but I will not opt for it.
time will heal,
and positive things will happen for sure.

for now, it is all you,
all you,

despite everything that happens,
I will pray for our success.
Nope, I will not do anything,
trust me.

mulut.

2012-01-02T01:12:00.000+08:00

Dunia ini tidak berputar mengikut paksi yang kamu mahukan.

bukan semua manusia lahirnya untuk jadi sempurna.

jika semua perlu mengikut acuan yang kamu mahu.

bosan dan tiada berwarna lah.

sedih betul.

ps: avoid heavily judgemental people, people.

new year resolution.

2012-01-01T02:41:00.000+08:00

1440 x 900

okay, lame joke is lame.

2011 has been amazing, really.
I wish 2012 to be a breakthrough year.
and yes, to be less hopeful of the unknown, I need to love myself more.

ps: it's still not the time to experiment though, but who knows?

rezeki.

2011-12-28T19:08:00.000+08:00

Lebih baik terus mengemukakan fakta,

dari terus menyalut janji dengan krim susu pekat manis yang kemungkinan besar,

sudah terlepas tarikh luput.

keep calm, and carry on.

fine.

2011-12-28T08:41:00.000+08:00

nope, not the 'saman' one.

let's move on to the next topic shall we?

bermuka-muka.

2011-12-27T21:13:00.001+08:00

Itu bahaya.
perlu lebih berhati-hati selepas ini.

lights.

2011-12-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

The canvas so colorful before,

are now looking bleak.

the rhythm now,

are not as it use to be.

is it time, or situation ?

that cause the path so bright,

turn gloomy and uncertain now?

questions, predictions,

lingers around my room of thought,

of what will happen next.

"to be or not to be? that is the questions"

ah, I need an inspiration now,

journey.

2011-12-06T08:27:00.000+08:00

I wish I can leave all this for a moment,

pack my things, and goes wherever I can.

I feel empty.

demotivated.

or just maybe I'm too comfortable with things right now.

I don't like it.

masa itu.

2011-12-01T22:09:00.000+08:00

pantas.
tidak akan berulang.

pilih.
sama ada ingin lemas kaku ditinggalkan arus.
atau bangun berlawan.

pilih.
untuk menikmati.
atau mati.

reflect.

2011-11-12T21:19:00.000+08:00

Maturity is crucial.

it determines every decision one has to make everyday.

it shaped what people sees about an individual.

and it also help someone from doing something that can ruin his image.

So far,

I think,

I'm not matured enough.

but I wonder does maturity grows with age?

because I'm confuse as there are still people who I find,

to be older and matured but, somehow they are,

not matured enough to conclude the meaning behind everything.

so does maturity grows with age?

or maturity itself divided into several categories?

what is the meaning of maturity really?

ah whatever.

I don't know.

but what I do know is,

I'll take everything that I've done as a lesson,

to be better.

screaming and spreading out people's weakness is not my style.

changes.

2011-11-08T12:28:00.000+08:00

changes we need.

but too much of it, is not good either.

Things must be kept in balance,

or else, the old stuff will feel that it's no longer be the priority it was back then.

sigh,

assurance.

2011-11-07T12:26:00.000+08:00

Weeks gone by..

and I can't believe I've been here for months.

yes, I am exhausted.

but what's need to be done must be done.

I've worked hard.

It's up to decision makers to choose, whether I am worthy or not.

sometimes

2011-08-15T22:37:00.000+08:00

mahu tidur awal hari ini.
cuba tengok esok akan rasa best atau tidak.

rasanya aku perlu buat twitter account. tidak tahu mahu tulis apa dah panjang-panjang.

first baby.

2011-08-14T17:08:00.000+08:00

long sigh of relief.
is the only thing that I can do now.

I'm glad, that I've taken up the challenge.
It's true what they say.
All the pain and suffering that you've endured before,
will all be forgotten soon after it goes on air.

This will be a very late promo.
watch MAGSEVEN at tonton.com.my.
episode 24.
thanks.

fast.

2011-08-01T20:22:00.000+08:00

Today and yesterday,
will simply not be the same.

confidence.

2011-07-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

skills alone can't guarantee success in your life,
hence, experience plays vital role in determining your every actions.
I've followed someone with huge experience in his hand today.
and for that, I respects his every move and decisions.

and yes, I'll try to learn as much as I can.

visit his blog - http://www.mazidulakmal.com/

tolong.

2011-07-09T21:32:00.000+08:00

kadang,
aku juga tak faham.
kalau sudah susah sangat. tutup sahajalah.
bukan tidak mahu tolong.
tapi rasanya sudah penat.
dan kecewa juga barangkali.

adakah tidak faham?
yang aku memerlukan sangat hari ini.
hari untuk aku senyum sepanjang hari.
esok sudah pasti aku sibuk kembali.

tidak sabar aku untuk berdiri sendiri.
kerana pada masa itu,
aku akan nyatakan sendiri,
apa yang aku rasa selama ini.
terima kasih.

pace.

2011-07-06T18:31:00.000+08:00

here,
people seems to walk faster than usual,
so I have to adapt with the pace too,
in order to not be left behind.

there are still much to learn,
so far, I'm happy,
and I hope things will be okay,
though I know the worst is still yet to come.

and they say

2011-06-30T17:39:00.001+08:00

without motivation, you will be weak, no matter how strong and intelligent you are.

I second that.

so I will motivate myself yet again,
with dreams and objective.
so that I can prove the world to the fact that,

David,
can really kick that Goliath ass.

epic ride.

2011-06-29T13:09:00.002+08:00

It has been fun. so fun that I forgot, I left some of my stress-stuff hover around this space.
yeah, the dilemma of academic writing is done. long ago.
I just write it away and send what I think is best.
the result is quite okay, but not enough to make me smile.

but it's okay.
considering that this last two month is the best months in my life this year.
friends, works, and activities, endless fun.
made me smile once more.

but the fun made not to last,
this will end soon,
and I will start the journey on another world.
full with unknown possibilities.

I feel like staying.
but staying limit my thoughts.
so I'll go and experience things on the other side,
even though they say life is hard over there,
but I will deny that,
in order to grow and reach what I thought is the top.

tulis.taip.

2011-04-07T19:50:00.000+08:00

dear blog,

long time no see.

wait for it.

it's raining.

2011-03-19T12:28:00.000+08:00

outside and inside.

surprise.

2011-03-17T02:10:00.000+08:00

you will experience an unexpected things happens in your life sometimes,
and you know that things will never be the same again after that.

I guess from now on,
I'll sit, and watch what will happen after this.
good luck.

fight.

2011-02-13T03:03:00.002+08:00

I will fight.
I will try to break free from this annoyance with all my might.

Complaining about how unlucky I am will not help me graduate.

I've been dealing with this thing for years,

and yes, I'm sure I am not loving it.

I don't see any use of this thing in the future I want to pursue,

and I wonder why they kept implementing it every year.

Academic Writing. I hate you.

infinity loop.

2011-02-11T00:37:00.003+08:00

It will never end.

I need to break free immediately.

motivation

2011-02-05T20:14:00.001+08:00

man. I need something to motivate me.

"ptptn. cepat sikit boleh tak? banyak duit nak kena pakai ni"

edited 11/2/11. thank you.

tonight.

2011-02-02T12:46:00.000+08:00

desu!

GACHA-LOVE!

2011-01-23T15:48:00.000+08:00

my band's first single! do support us and give us your comments :)

you can also download the single here -> http://www.mediafire.com/?jh3zrjqa3n7a07d

acapella.

2011-01-19T20:47:00.000+08:00

you can say whatever you want man. but I love acapella. and they did good. Good enough to make watch they sing till the end. despite Justin's ugly hair. hahah!

ps: Syarmin Lee. kamu senasib dengan Justin Timberlake rupanya.

otherside.

2011-01-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

travelling.

costly. yet, I find it to be very interesting.

the feeling and the chances of seeing something new, tasting different foods, experiencing other cultures and norms fascinates me.

but the fact that I'm just a regular guy who relies on ptptn and his parent money to study and do anything else.. sigh.

I'm frustrated.

but hey, patience and hard work is the key right?

wait world. in a few years time. I'll invade you and learn things that I could never learn in my own home.

just you wait, you.

pandai.

2011-01-16T23:11:00.001+08:00

saya tak pandai bercakap. saya tak pandai berkata-kata.
saya lagi suka terus buat dan buktikan.
tapi saya sedar, apa yang saya buat ini tak cukup,
saya pelajar, boleh tunggu tak?
bila saya stabil, awak cakap saja.
saya terus kota.

tapi sedih, buat saja tidak cukup.
kata-kata itu juga penting akhirnya.

kalau kamu kata mahu pergi dan tak mahu saya lagi. cakap saja. tak perlu tunggu salah.jelas kut nampak saya tahu dah. tunggu masa saja nak angkat kaki pergi. dan sekarang lah masanya. terima kasih. jumpa lagi.

23

2011-01-08T10:37:00.001+08:00

I use to wonder and guess

"What will I be years from now?"

I guess the question remains the same until now.

Well anyway this age will mark the last year that I will be in school. Unless, if I wanted to pursue Masters later on. For now, I think I have enough spending 90% of my life studying. This year is my last chance to prepare for the real world, and I hope I will be prepared.

and yes, I do really hope for a better luck.

wahai pemberi pinjaman.

2011-01-03T10:46:00.002+08:00

diharap kamu boleh menyenangkan hidup saya awal sikit dalam minggu ini juga. banyak perkara perlu diselesaikan ni.

2010

2010-12-30T20:27:00.000+08:00

A breakthrough year I must say. Things learned. Mistakes done. Experience earned.
Like always, I wish for a better year in 2011. Please.

facepalm.

2010-12-30T18:46:00.002+08:00

wish.

2010-12-30T14:09:00.000+08:00

I wish things will be better than this.

Yumecolors new video.

2010-12-29T22:50:00.000+08:00

yes, a new video.

spirit.

2010-12-29T18:49:00.000+08:00

"Kita sebenarnya sayang dan sanggup saja berhabis duit dan masa untuk negara kita. Cuma wakil-wakil kita itu yang selalu buat rasa sayang kita makin berkurang."

Harap mereka tak menghampakan kita lagi kali ni.

dahulu.

2010-12-29T18:31:00.002+08:00

I miss this.

The days when we are eager to accomplish all things at once and learn many throughout the way.

L

2010-12-23T20:34:00.002+08:00

newyearwhut?

2010-12-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

I guess, I'll end up being alone in new year's eve.

just like before.

excuse.

2010-12-20T01:14:00.000+08:00

I knew it.
you're just waiting for it to happen and there you go.
so fast, so easy.

"dah malas. bye"

well, I guess I was right all along.
I just want to know how fast is your reaction anyway. That's all.
You're not like this before.

ps: and I am not planning to be nice to anybody at all pun.

better.

2010-12-13T17:40:00.002+08:00

It's better to just die.

than to experience life-threatening accidents. over and over again.
trust me, I know.

.

2010-12-12T16:43:00.000+08:00

It's like a cancer.
from a simple "."
can turn and destroy one's life.

just from a simple "."
simple.

tepu.

2010-12-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

Rasanya,
otak dah tepu kot
semangat dah kurang kot

apa yang aku tahu sekarang,
wang, wang, wang.
kalau tidak hidup kau,
terhuyung hayang terhuyung hayang.

Tinggal lagi setahun,
apa yang perlu ambil tahu,
aku ambil tahu.

apa yang tidak perlu.
aku malas.

time machine.

2010-11-30T16:50:00.001+08:00

If a genius or a genie comes and ask me,

I can grant you any wish and give you anything, and now what is your wish sir?

I would ask for a time machine.

yes, a time machine.

you can say, hey! why not the money? why not the women? why not the status?

I'd say, with the machine, I can get all those three things.

Plus, I could change the history, I could be a spectator of World War 2. I can tell Hitler what's coming before him, I can prove the existence of Hang Tuah and the most important things.

I can change what I've done wrong in the past so that I'll not be stuck like this. Stuck like this!

But. I know, there will be no genius nor genie that will ever come to me. This is reality.

Life is like a twisted movie, like the RPG games. You can never expect what's coming in front of you. All you can do is to speculate, and prepare for anything.

So that you will survive.

I've survived, so far.

If a song could get me you

2010-11-30T16:19:00.001+08:00

bila kami tiada kerja. kami bantu dia.

dan ya, 18 Disember ini, lihat kami di Comic Fiesta. kami akan ber-busking di sana.

sometimes

2010-10-26T14:04:00.000+08:00

I wish that I can have the ability to read and control minds.

I don't know, it's just if I happen to have that power, I will no longer worry about how my future going to be like. For example, during the interview, you just can persuade the CEO or the interviewer to give you any position you want in the company. Or maybe you just can persuade some old rich brat to give you his wealth.

well I guess I'm the villain here.

but still, I don't care. I'm not trying to conquer the world and burn people houses anyway.

ps: damn, I need to work more on my persuasive skill.

photo credit - here

i prefer,

2010-10-25T19:32:00.000+08:00

to explore more.
rather than sitting here, doing nothing.

ps: I guess any individual who is passionate enough to do something will somehow be weakened by stupid financial problem.

oh yeah.

2010-09-22T14:51:00.002+08:00

Sudah-sudahla tu dengan macam-macam isu yang kamu semua asyik cuba nak bangkitkan.
Cuba enjoy sahaja video ini. ingat senang ke nak buat video one take je all the way?

I respect their video planning, execution biasa saja, tapi kalau dapat talent yang boleh express themselves more dalam video ni mesti lagi bagus.

ps: oh yea, video ni ada influence BECR juga kah?.

maaf bahasa rojak. jangan buat isu disini pula.

workout.

2010-09-19T19:36:00.000+08:00

*you ni, asal perut makin menjadi-jadi?*

Okay, I guess, it's time to do something about it.
.......
.......
.......
.......

eh wait, is that McD Triple Cheeseburger? Nak Nak!

raya.

2010-09-13T20:11:00.000+08:00

raya.freemason.arwah sosilawati dan lain-lain.

meriah sungguh raya kali ni dengan headlines.

jika terbukti dari apa yang dikhabarkan. aku kasihan dengan arwah-arwah yang terbunuh.

kasihan lagi dengan mereka yang arwah hanya kerana menemani atas dasar kerja.

bagaimana dengan keluarga mereka?

about the ad.

2010-09-07T14:32:00.000+08:00

okay, i can understand about the sensitivity thingy and the ad deserve to be ban by the television in order to respect our society sensitivity.

but,

why the Illuminati?

seriously man, you guys need to think more about the creativity, technics and concept of the ad rather than thinking about the Illuminati bullshit all over the place.

dan yang tak boleh belah ada yang berusaha menyentuh hal lesbianism. wtf.

masihkah kau ingat?

2010-09-02T13:20:00.000+08:00

perlu aktif berkamera kembali.

i miss lendu.

2010-08-27T15:10:00.000+08:00

puasa di sini, memang tidak sama dengan puasa di sana.

yeap, family ada, semua ada.

tapi suasana itu yang tiada.

aku rindu sana.

haih.

ps: the only time that's worth remembering during this puasa is the time when I'm with you. and my family. ;)

thank you.

2010-08-16T06:13:00.002+08:00

hi world!

2010-08-04T14:13:00.001+08:00

I'm back.

C2AGE

2010-07-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

One down, one more to go. see ya this 31st, at Unisel Shah Alam seksyen 7.

i wish.

2010-07-21T01:38:00.000+08:00

I has all the money in the world.
so that i can make u smile, and bring happiness that no other man can give.
but I guess i'm just some random people who need to spend his money and time wisely for the better future.

so I'm giving u myself, my attention, and all the thing u need.
to make up for that money void.

No, I'm not saying that money is everything, I'm just stating that, no matter how hard you people try to deny.
Money will always be an important part in keeping relationship going.

well, unless we're in the 'Hang Tuah' period, that's another story.

I took the one less traveled by,

2010-07-08T16:25:00.000+08:00

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

The Road Not Taken, Robert Frost

Good luck to Adlan Ramly for his upcoming show, Road Not Taken, this Saturday. For more information, click here

ps: sigh.

sad.

2010-07-05T14:18:00.000+08:00

and now just going to sit, and look at the stars, and cry.

ps: i guess i'm just not that strong.

hey.

2010-07-01T14:35:00.000+08:00

Whatever happens, I'm here.
Just call for me, and I'll be there for you.

don't cry okay?

ps: and let me fire whatever monster who dare to hurt your feelings.

=)

2010-06-18T11:48:00.001+08:00

Jealousy is one of the shits that you have to endure / deal everyday.

especially when you're in an uncertain relationship or maybe when someone you know gain something that you wanted to gain but you can't.

but I think I can live with it. It encourage me to do better in life. :)

mahu bangkit.

2010-06-14T13:55:00.000+08:00

Kau tahu kau boleh saja buat, senang sahaja benda ini sebenarnya..

cuma kau kalah.

kalah pada perasaan malas kau tu. perasaan malas kau yang makin menggunung sebab kau terlalu selesa dengan kejayaan lepas.mana pergi engkau yang dahulunya berdaya-saing tu? mana pergi individu tu?

Jadi sekarang apa kau mahu buat?

aku mahu bangkit.

ps: maaf kepada manusia yang percaya pada aku. Aku faham jika kamu sudah tidak percaya lagi dan ingin beralih,. tapi jika kamu masih, aku akan buktikan pada kamu semester hadapan.

MAVIC.

2010-06-04T15:03:00.000+08:00

5 ideas chosen for super pitch phase, 1 got through the final phase (short film) and now, we're on the pre-production phase!

ps : jadi siapa ingin jadi talent?

Broga.

2010-06-02T15:07:00.000+08:00

bangun pukul 4 pagi, tidak cukup tidur, naik bukit, lupabawa torchlight, cuaca mendung pagi.
membuatkan aku berasa malas untuk upload gmbar banyak-banyak sebab ianya tidak superb

Hoop.

2010-05-20T11:39:00.000+08:00

rakan : wei, tengah cuti?
me: a'ah
rakan : asal tak turun basketball petang-petang?
me : la, aku ingat korang dah tak main,
rakan : ada je main, kalau tak hujan ar, kalau free turun ar, budak-budak ni nak ajak kau masuk team.
me : tiada hal, team untuk apa?
rakan : untuk M(lupa nama) tournament, datang ah kalau free~
me : alrite.

I guess I'll be playing basketball again after one year. duh,

ps: mahu jaga kesihatan punya pasal.

Attributes

2010-05-19T13:50:00.001+08:00

It's painful to only see other people do things that you wish you can do.

I feel like a level 2 Novice who can't do anything other than beat pupa and poring to gain level. sigh.

ps: mula-mula kita kena kayuh pelan-pelan dahulu dengan sabar orang kata, itu orang kata, kita rasa, orang tak tahu.

Reggae Reggae

2010-05-13T15:56:00.000+08:00

Bob Marley Tribute @ Laila's Lounge.

ps: tak rasa mahu menulis sekarang. rasa mahu ambil gambar saja. Ahh~ !

Sungai Congkak Desu!

2010-05-10T12:29:00.000+08:00

ps: akibat terlalu asyik mandi. maka kurang gambar diambil.

you.

2010-04-27T14:02:00.000+08:00

jom?

Hoping for the best.

2010-04-14T00:08:00.000+08:00

I'm happy when you say you kinda have an opportunity to get your dream(kan?) job.

I'm happy when you've got the offer for the interview.

I'm happy when you say you just had a very good interview.

I'm happy for you.

but some part of me am not happy when you say,

"oh kerja tu di Penang"

and some part of me also did not happy when you say,

"oh nanti ada training di UK, maybe"

some part of me wishes you to get that job because that's what you wanted when you grad dulu kan?.

but some part of me wishes you don't.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry because..

because I love you.

Because I don't want you to be so far away.

ps: but still, i'm happy when you're happy, and I'm hoping you for the best.

I'm hoping us for the best.

It's not over yet.

2010-04-09T16:32:00.000+08:00

This war, is not over yet.

not until I say it is.

One week more to go, and load of work to complete. Thanks to Denggi, I've spent almost a week, doing nothing.

ps: thanks to you too, your every word give me strength to continue this bad phase of life. Pedulilah apa mereka mahu kata.

Tiba-Tiba.

2010-04-02T12:43:00.000+08:00

jadi siapa saja yang berkebolehan ganti kamu?

Selamat Hari Jadi Encik Umar.

2010-03-30T03:34:00.000+08:00

Selamat menjadi tua. Kau bukan lagi seorang 'shota' haha.

Last Weekend

2010-03-29T03:32:00.000+08:00

Epic.

This weekend.

2010-03-19T12:46:00.000+08:00

can't wait.

Si Penghibur

2010-03-18T12:44:00.000+08:00

Aku tak pernah benci mana-mana penghibur pun dalam hidup aku setakat ni,
bagi aku, pergi mampuslah jika mereka mahu buat masalah di mana -mana pun.

Tapi sekarang aku dah ter-benci.
aku benci sebab dia mengganggu hidup 'rabu' aku.
aku memang tak faham kenapa dia tak boleh cari orang lain.

"hoi si penghibur, cukup-cukuplah tu.fahamlah bahasa sedikit"

ps:you, mungkin kamu perlu berbahasa sanskrit selepas ini baru dia faham.

whatever it is, i'm here. don't worry.

Sit.

2010-03-12T13:36:00.001+08:00

My current life is so hectic and full that it made me forget of how to actually sit, observe and capture the moments slowly.

seriously, i need some time to be freed from all the workloads and go somewhere where i can walk and enjoy the nature.

I miss photography. Really, I do.

ps: and you, nak follow tak?

Workloads.

2010-03-10T20:55:00.000+08:00

Things to do :

Animation's project.
Animation's Flipbook.
Animation's Concept Board.
Radio Broadcasting's documentary script
Management's company proposal.
Radio and TV's Group video project.
Japanese's Video group project.
Communication Research's group research.

Things to handle :

Animation's Exhibition.

tolong tambah jika ada lagi, ini saja yang saya ingat.

ps: and I still survive and holding on to this world because of you.

I love you.

Financially,

2010-03-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

not good,

Dear ptptn,

Please, please approve my form this wednesday, and please, please give me your financial support right on time, without delay.

please.

and you,
thanks for all the support. I love you. :)

ps: duit mengalir macam air.

Selamat Hari Jadi Cik Pana.

2010-03-02T13:55:00.000+08:00

Age.

2010-02-28T11:17:00.000+08:00

Doesn't matter.

It's you that matter.

ps: yes, sila pukul saya kerana mencuri gambar.

Dahulu.

2010-02-26T15:41:00.001+08:00

Aku rindu masa ini, zaman bila kita hanya tahu bereksperimentasi dan buat sahaja apa kita suka tanpa kira continuity dan cara berlakon yang betul.

just pure fun.

rakan-rakan! mari shooting satu lagi short macam ini bila cuti ya?

Time Machine.

2010-02-25T21:00:00.003+08:00

Build me a time machine,
so that I could go back into the time,
when I am with you again.

Build me a time machine,
so that I can see your pretty smile,
again and again.

Build me a time machine,
so I can look deeply into your eyes,
again and again.

Build me a time machine,
so I can see that wonderful lips of yours,
again and again.

Build me a time machine,
so I can never live alone again,
in pain.

ps: just please build for me a time machine, old man.

you.

2010-02-24T20:57:00.002+08:00

Just when I thought my life would be the same,
You came.

You came knocking on my door asking,

"is there any person other than you living here?"

"no, you are the first one since forever who are able to knock on this door"
I replied.

"oh yea? then can i come in? I kinda love this place"
you ask,

"sure, I would love too, I've been alone all along in this place you know"
I answer.

Just when you are about to enter, suddenly you stopped, and hesitates,

thinking.

"What will people say?"
"What will they think?"
"What would PEOPLE think?"

I say,

I've opened this door for you, only for you to step in, and live in this life forever.
Because I know,
I know well how my feelings feels,
and I don't care about what others feels.

I've been an ignorant for so long, closing my door to almost everyone I've met,
but I can't now,
because of you.
because of you who came
and knocks on my lonely door.

ps: I love you.

Hari Bercinta.

2010-02-11T17:30:00.002+08:00

So what's up with all this Valentine's hype?

"bosanlah 14hb, ada nombor 'mati' pulak tuh"

If I have the power to change the date and history, maybe I would put the date on 8th August instead of 14th February.

Baru ada luck beb.

and then the history would be like there is this lovers who are in love so much that they swear not to be apart from each other. But somehow, along the way, their love was not supported by both sides parents because of the 'darjat' issue. The lovers couldn't do anything because they have to obey their parents plus, the parents on the girl side plans to marry their daughter to some rich ass family son, so that their company can merge and be more succesful than ever.

The lovers can't take the facts that they have to be set apart, thus they've poisoned themselves and then dies side by side, holding hands and smiling, even after they're dead.

fin.

Kan Cliche! baru feeling sikit nak sambut 'valentine's' kan since history dia mudah saja mahu faham.

and after that, maybe I would create a special day for single people, which is on

4th April.

ps: entry merepek, sila bertahan.

Respect the Passion.

2010-02-07T14:43:00.002+08:00

Lect : jadi apa yang mendorong kamu untuk ambil course ini?

Manusia x : Entah, result SPM bukan bagus sangat pun, dan course ini nampak mudah dan orang kata tak banyak kerja pun, jadi saya ambil lah.

Honesty is a good thing,

but telling this kind of honest thing in front of the class is not what you call, a good thing to do.

Dear Manusia X,

When you state that thought of yours, it is not only you have stated that you are the kind of guy who doesn't have any targets or ambition in your life but you are also offending people who are taking the course too. I feel offended, I don't know about the rest of the class, but I DO feel offended. Man, I do really know that you didn't have the passion to learn almost anything, but you don't need to channel your thoughts to other people-lah. I have passion, and I take this course as a platform for me to learn almost everything that I wanted to achieve my ambition. Well, although there are some subject that I found like "kenapa aku belajar menda ni?" but still,

some thoughts are meant to be kept inside your head.

I hope you will find your way back, I'm sure that once upon a time on your earlier life, you too have your own passion and ambition to strive for.

Jodelle Ferland and the Case 39

2010-01-29T21:22:00.006+08:00

Photo taken from here

She gave a very good performance in 'Case 39'. For me she outshine the movie and even the leading actress,Renée Zellweger . It's not easy to be a psychotic character that can give people berdiri bulu roma sambil menekup muka, and she made it look easy.

The kids from Hollywood surely can act very well,

I wonder is there any kids from our beloved Malaysian Film industry who can really act?

oh ya, lupa pula pasal mereka ini,

Photo taken from here

Case 39 - 2.5/5

Jodelle Ferland - 4/5

ps: no, I am not a pedophile.Don't arrest me.

Taste.

2010-01-25T20:08:00.003+08:00

rakan x : perempuan tu hot.

me : boleh lah

rakan x :aku kadang-kadang heran dengan kau, apa taste kau sebenarnya ni?"

I can't explain it, but I can show you one picture that have 40 % of what I wanted in wanita

the remaining 60% is the personality and yes, the chemistry between us.

Nope, I'm not desperate, it's just that time of the month again when you kind of have this feeling of envy to the other man who 'scores' in their life.

ps: yea, aku tahu, entri ini menjengkelkan dan kamu mesti rasa aku bajet hensem.

Full.

2010-01-23T16:05:00.004+08:00

Photo credits here

I really love it when my life is full

I feel alive that way, because I felt that somehow,

I have a reason to live another day, I have a chance to prove myself on this world, and I didn't need to sit back and just watch other people goes forward and take all the chance they have in front of them and then succeed.

Oh I have enough moments, seeing other people succeed in their life.

All this time, there will always be this individuals who proudly says,

"oh, Datuk M tu kawan aku, oh Artis J tu kawan aku, aku satu batch dengan mereka dahulu"

I definitely did not want to be that individual.

FFVPM 7

2010-01-18T20:16:00.004+08:00

4 days trip to Perlis, 3 nominations, and a second place for documentary. Well, not bad for our first attempt. What upset me is that I didn't get a chance to be with the group during brainstroming and production process due to my injury.I really hope to have a chance to compete again next time.

ps : I have to admit, I miss the people, the environment and the calmness of Malacca.

Whoa Willow!

2010-01-09T13:43:00.002+08:00

"Orang lain sibuk dengan isu bakar-membakar, kita boleh pula pergi tengok teater"

Congratulations on your show my friends, you all memang gempak and Whoa Willow! is a very very good show!

ps: I didn't write much nowadays, well you know, it's that time of the season again, where life is so full sampai tiada masa untuk menulis walaupun ada banyak issue mahu dipetik.

22

2010-01-08T15:52:00.001+08:00

Be happy. It's one way of being wise. - Colette

1.1.10

2010-01-02T17:15:00.004+08:00

I need an ear plug.

2009 : Year of Gain, Lost & End

2009-12-25T11:42:00.007+08:00

Gain

Lost

End

Just like the other previous years, I do hope for a good luck and better year. 2009 has been good,

2010, don't let me down.

Comic Fiesta 09

2009-12-21T14:19:00.004+08:00

New experience gained, great times with the lads, bad times with money.